Mandy自从和老朋友们重新见面后,整个人陷入了一种迷幻状态,似乎她虽然在这个世界上好好地活着,但似乎有一半魂魄留在了某个遥远的,偏僻的,古早的,隔离的,陌生的,熟悉的时空里。
洛可嘉第一个察觉到她的迷离疑惑,似乎她总是在问,“我是谁”、“我为什么在这里”、“这是哪里”、“这些人都是哪来的”、“原来的我呢?”
走丢了……
她的每一个微笑都在说,“我好困惑”、“我错了吗”、“我怎么办”……
在孙先生拜访后第二天,Mandy摔了Nihole心爱的大熊猫勺子,第三天她忘了去接Osar放学,第四天她忘了烧饭,那两天洛妈和洛老爹由热旺陪着去费城玩儿了。
洛可嘉忍无可忍,决定跟Mandy好好谈谈。
“Youarenotyourselfthesedays.”saidLok,lookingdiretlyintohereyes.
“Idon‘tquietfollowyou.”returnedMandy,turningthepagesinfrontofherratherrampantly.
“Youwantedtofindyourlostselfasateenager,didn‘tyou”Lokwasruthless.
“That‘ssountrue.”Mandywouldnotlookatherhusbandintheeye.
“Wannaatalk”lokretreatedalittlebitbuthisgroundswerefirmlyheld.
“Theyhaven‘thangedmuhsinewelastsawoneanother.”atlastMandydeidedtospilloutallthatwaslingeringonhermind——bearingtheweightiswearisome.
“TheyWhomintheworlddoyoureferto,thosewhoarenotennabledtoloveoraquireafamily”Lokdemanded.
“Don‘tbesorude.”Mandywasfinallyheeringupalittlebit.
Loklaughed,“Ibetmostofthemwouldtradewhattheypossessforthelifeyouareliving,evenifthereisahandiappedmaninthepiture.”
Mandysmiledforthefirsttime,“Nonsense.Howdareyou.....”
Lokpikeduphismobile,“Minerva,howmanyphotosofthekidshavewegot”
TheAIpoppedupfromnowhereonthesreen,“Sineyouaskedsir,thefamilyalbumhastakenupatleastthreequartersofthestorage,whihmeansthereareoveronethousandphotostotally,andthatseriouslylaggestheproessingspeedofthemobile.That‘swhyIsuggestdeletinghalf......”
“Thanks,Minerva.That‘swhatIneedtolearnforthemoment.”LoknoddedtotheAI,asifsheouldsee.Atullyshedidnotiethat,shewavedbakhappilyandwasoff.
LoksaidtoMandyassinerelyaspossible,“Ibelievewhatyouhavealreadyownedweighsmuhmorethanwhatyouthoughthadlost.”
Mandylamented,“HowdoyouknowthisisthebestformeIouldhaveledanotherlife.....”l
“Idon‘tthinkit‘stherightattitudeforlife.Itseemsyouwillalwaysberegrettingoveryoureahandeveryhoieordeision.”Therewasanedgetohisvoie,buthestayedool,“Stopomparingwithothers‘livesandstopmoaningformore.Thefishermanandhiswifeshouldhavebeenontentedwithwhattheyhavereeivedfromthegoldfishandthey‘dbetternotbegformorethantheydeserved.”
Mandyremarkedwithadangeroustone,“AreyoutellingmeIdon‘tdeservethebestoflife”() ()
Loksensedsomething,“Don‘ttwistit.YouknowwhatImeant.Youwouldneverbeabletofigureoutwhatthebestiswhenyouweresixteen.”
Mandymurmuredasifshehadbeeninadream,“HowIwishtobesixteenagain,arefree.”
Lokamenearertoher,andhuggedher,leavinghiswheelhairbehind,“Thepointis,whateverhappenstoyou,fromnowontosixtyorninety,youwillalwayshaveus.”
Mandyburstintotears,“Ihavenothingeptyouandthekids.Ifeelold.Thisworldlooksatmewithviiouseyes.”
“Youanalwaysountonus,”Lokpromised,“Igiveyoumyword.There‘snopartingofusuntilonedies.Staypositiveandherisheveryminute.”
MandyleanedagainstLok‘sshoulder,totallyforgettingheshouldnothavestoodupandsupportedherweight.“Iwon‘tfallforit.TheylookasifworriedformebutIguesstheyreallyenjoyedthemselvesseeingmealmostrashed.”
shelookedatLokandwassuddenlystartled,“Iwasalmosttakenin.......Ishouldn‘thavetoldthemhowIbrokedown......Iwouldneverletthemreeivethewrongmessageasifmylifewereajoke.”
“Don‘toverrespond.”Loksaid,“Theyareyourfriends,andtheyshowedonernsaboutourlife.Themorepathetiwelook,thefunnieritwouldbewhentheyknowwhatwe‘rereallylike.”
“Yes,someofthemdidtrytoruinmyself-esteemandnearlyonvinedmetopitymyself.Howanonebesomean”
Loksuggested,“I‘veomeupwithanidea.Whydon‘tweholdaparty”Hehesitated,“Doesanyofthemhaveafamily”
“No,noneofthemdo.Peopledon‘tgetmarriedthesedays,Iguesstheyareafraidtogiveommitments.”Mandyformedasmileasthoughshefeltsorryforherfriends.
“So,thatsettleseverything.”Loksmiledbak,“Weinviteabunhofkids.”
“DoweknowotherkidsbesidesthoseinOsar‘skindergarten”Mandyasked.
“Oh,ofoursewedo,”announedLok,“Thereareplentyofkids,Asian,Latino,andblakinthehildren‘shospital.Thiswillbeafund-raisingpartyfordisabledhildren,andmeaswell.”Loksatbakintothewheelhairasquiklyashiskneesallowedtoarryhim,whihamusedMandylikehell.
“Sinetheyaresokind,suretheydon‘tminddonatingsomedollarsforthegoodourse”Lokquestioned.
“That‘sreallynieofyou.Allofmyfriendswouldbeverythankfuliftheyareofferedahanetoshowthattheyreallyareforthehandiapped.”Mandybitherlips,tryinghardnottolaugh.
“IsuddenlyrememberIhaveoneortwoaquaintanesonthepress.”Loksneered,“Theywoulddietoseemeonthemoveagain.”
洛可嘉第一个察觉到她的迷离疑惑,似乎她总是在问,“我是谁”、“我为什么在这里”、“这是哪里”、“这些人都是哪来的”、“原来的我呢?”
走丢了……
她的每一个微笑都在说,“我好困惑”、“我错了吗”、“我怎么办”……
在孙先生拜访后第二天,Mandy摔了Nihole心爱的大熊猫勺子,第三天她忘了去接Osar放学,第四天她忘了烧饭,那两天洛妈和洛老爹由热旺陪着去费城玩儿了。
洛可嘉忍无可忍,决定跟Mandy好好谈谈。
“Youarenotyourselfthesedays.”saidLok,lookingdiretlyintohereyes.
“Idon‘tquietfollowyou.”returnedMandy,turningthepagesinfrontofherratherrampantly.
“Youwantedtofindyourlostselfasateenager,didn‘tyou”Lokwasruthless.
“That‘ssountrue.”Mandywouldnotlookatherhusbandintheeye.
“Wannaatalk”lokretreatedalittlebitbuthisgroundswerefirmlyheld.
“Theyhaven‘thangedmuhsinewelastsawoneanother.”atlastMandydeidedtospilloutallthatwaslingeringonhermind——bearingtheweightiswearisome.
“TheyWhomintheworlddoyoureferto,thosewhoarenotennabledtoloveoraquireafamily”Lokdemanded.
“Don‘tbesorude.”Mandywasfinallyheeringupalittlebit.
Loklaughed,“Ibetmostofthemwouldtradewhattheypossessforthelifeyouareliving,evenifthereisahandiappedmaninthepiture.”
Mandysmiledforthefirsttime,“Nonsense.Howdareyou.....”
Lokpikeduphismobile,“Minerva,howmanyphotosofthekidshavewegot”
TheAIpoppedupfromnowhereonthesreen,“Sineyouaskedsir,thefamilyalbumhastakenupatleastthreequartersofthestorage,whihmeansthereareoveronethousandphotostotally,andthatseriouslylaggestheproessingspeedofthemobile.That‘swhyIsuggestdeletinghalf......”
“Thanks,Minerva.That‘swhatIneedtolearnforthemoment.”LoknoddedtotheAI,asifsheouldsee.Atullyshedidnotiethat,shewavedbakhappilyandwasoff.
LoksaidtoMandyassinerelyaspossible,“Ibelievewhatyouhavealreadyownedweighsmuhmorethanwhatyouthoughthadlost.”
Mandylamented,“HowdoyouknowthisisthebestformeIouldhaveledanotherlife.....”l
“Idon‘tthinkit‘stherightattitudeforlife.Itseemsyouwillalwaysberegrettingoveryoureahandeveryhoieordeision.”Therewasanedgetohisvoie,buthestayedool,“Stopomparingwithothers‘livesandstopmoaningformore.Thefishermanandhiswifeshouldhavebeenontentedwithwhattheyhavereeivedfromthegoldfishandthey‘dbetternotbegformorethantheydeserved.”
Mandyremarkedwithadangeroustone,“AreyoutellingmeIdon‘tdeservethebestoflife”() ()
Loksensedsomething,“Don‘ttwistit.YouknowwhatImeant.Youwouldneverbeabletofigureoutwhatthebestiswhenyouweresixteen.”
Mandymurmuredasifshehadbeeninadream,“HowIwishtobesixteenagain,arefree.”
Lokamenearertoher,andhuggedher,leavinghiswheelhairbehind,“Thepointis,whateverhappenstoyou,fromnowontosixtyorninety,youwillalwayshaveus.”
Mandyburstintotears,“Ihavenothingeptyouandthekids.Ifeelold.Thisworldlooksatmewithviiouseyes.”
“Youanalwaysountonus,”Lokpromised,“Igiveyoumyword.There‘snopartingofusuntilonedies.Staypositiveandherisheveryminute.”
MandyleanedagainstLok‘sshoulder,totallyforgettingheshouldnothavestoodupandsupportedherweight.“Iwon‘tfallforit.TheylookasifworriedformebutIguesstheyreallyenjoyedthemselvesseeingmealmostrashed.”
shelookedatLokandwassuddenlystartled,“Iwasalmosttakenin.......Ishouldn‘thavetoldthemhowIbrokedown......Iwouldneverletthemreeivethewrongmessageasifmylifewereajoke.”
“Don‘toverrespond.”Loksaid,“Theyareyourfriends,andtheyshowedonernsaboutourlife.Themorepathetiwelook,thefunnieritwouldbewhentheyknowwhatwe‘rereallylike.”
“Yes,someofthemdidtrytoruinmyself-esteemandnearlyonvinedmetopitymyself.Howanonebesomean”
Loksuggested,“I‘veomeupwithanidea.Whydon‘tweholdaparty”Hehesitated,“Doesanyofthemhaveafamily”
“No,noneofthemdo.Peopledon‘tgetmarriedthesedays,Iguesstheyareafraidtogiveommitments.”Mandyformedasmileasthoughshefeltsorryforherfriends.
“So,thatsettleseverything.”Loksmiledbak,“Weinviteabunhofkids.”
“DoweknowotherkidsbesidesthoseinOsar‘skindergarten”Mandyasked.
“Oh,ofoursewedo,”announedLok,“Thereareplentyofkids,Asian,Latino,andblakinthehildren‘shospital.Thiswillbeafund-raisingpartyfordisabledhildren,andmeaswell.”Loksatbakintothewheelhairasquiklyashiskneesallowedtoarryhim,whihamusedMandylikehell.
“Sinetheyaresokind,suretheydon‘tminddonatingsomedollarsforthegoodourse”Lokquestioned.
“That‘sreallynieofyou.Allofmyfriendswouldbeverythankfuliftheyareofferedahanetoshowthattheyreallyareforthehandiapped.”Mandybitherlips,tryinghardnottolaugh.
“IsuddenlyrememberIhaveoneortwoaquaintanesonthepress.”Loksneered,“Theywoulddietoseemeonthemoveagain.”